Is Your Past Holding You Hostage?

Your mind reels with memories that imprison you. You rehearse the events like Groundhog Day, each time inserting a new response in your mind of things you wish you’d said. If only you’d told them this or reacted like that. But at the end of your minds’ spiral, life is not changed, the facts cannot be undone.

Have you ever been tormented by your own thoughts?

I’ve spent far too long in this life rehearsing pain from my past. Betrayal, regret, even abuse, and I can’t think hard enough to process them through to a place of peace; they have to be taken hold of and released.

You know you should forgive, you want to. You want your life back. You plead with your own heart to just move on, but you can’t seem to find the freedom you desperately crave. The past is holding you hostage as you realize that you still hold out hope that somehow the memories could be different, but as long as we stay in the place of regret we cannot move forward.

Forgiveness and healing can only happen when we give up hope that the past could be different.

There is a settling in our heart that happens when we embrace the truth that the past is done, it cannot be changed. However, we can change our tomorrows, and as I let the remorse slip from my hands I start to see with the eyes of hope.

Hope is a waking dream. —ARISTOTLE

As if we wake from a long slumber, hope brings fresh eyes and dreams of freedom. Thankfully, these dreams can come true if our hope is in the Father of all life because He has promised to heal our brokenness when we bring it to Him.

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  Psalms 34:18

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalms 147:3

I don’t pretend to think that this is an easy or fast process, but it’s the only process that makes us whole.  This world offers many ways to deflect the pain, but I believe that God wants to bring much more than a momentary distraction. He wants a relationship with us that brings healing and security as we discover His immense love for us.

I wish I had some fancy steps that you could take, an ABC of healing that I could throw out to you, but I don’t. I have the scars that remind me that this life is a journey not cut and tied in pretty little bows but instead a path littered with thorns and crosses, prodigals and promises. I can’t imagine trying to walk it alone, I hope you can’t either.

“I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” Hebrews 13:5 NLT

God created you. He knows all, He sees all, and yet He is crazy about you. He can be found in every moment if we open our eyes and look up.

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  1. Sue this is a beautiful reminder. I've been here and at times I can still go there. You are right it's not an easy road to walk. The enemy loves to drag us back if he can. I learned quite awhile ago that the only way to do battle against my thoughts and memories is to know truth. To go to His word and "preach" it to myself! 🙂

    One of the best things God showed me was who I am TODAY in Him and because of him…and who He IS and ALWAYS has been!! it's what I stand on when my mind begins to turn toward Egypt! 🙂

    Love you dear sister….

  2. Juliana Brydon says:

    Sue, this was great. I needed this,so much, this morning. Thanks for the reminder. Just like you said its not an easy road, but He is with us and and He loves us so much that anything is possible. it’s just hard to see it when you are deep in the pit. Your post and Sharon’s words were very uplifting. Starting the week with a smile.



  3. I catch myself yelling "Stop"! when dealing with this scenario. Sometimes it works sometimes not. Thanks for this post. I'll have to bookmark it for future reference.